One of the most difficult aspects of my recovery is not necessarily turning my will over to my Higher Power but feeling unsure about what the outcome will be. In other words, I have faith enough to turn my will and life over to God but I don't always have enough trust that the outcome will be the right one. I guess what I'm saying is that I put a situation, problem or whatever in God's hands but then hope that the solution suits me; that it is going to be a positive outcome and that all will be well.

I heard a story very early in sobriety and I wish I had written it down word for word. I do recall the basic story, though, and it goes like this: If there was a wire over the Grand Canyon, do you believe that your Higher Power (for me, God) could walk a wheelbarrow across the canyon on that wire? (My answer was then and is now, an absolute "yes" because I have faith that God can do anything.) If your answer is "yes" here is the second part: would you get in the wheelbarrow? That is a completely different issue. This is trust. This is the scary part. I envision God with that wheelbarrow and myself standing there wondering if I trust Him enough to put my life on the line. Before you give an immediate answer visualize

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